One thing that bothers me the most. That my ex Rocky did to me all the time. We had known each other for about 7 months. But dated for like 5 months, and he didn't feel like he could tell me any thing. He'd rather tell this guy who was 14 years old and was the most annoying whiny ass little prick. Then tell his own girlfriend. I never understood that, I am his girl friend and he could never even tell me the little things. Like he had to go out of town and I had to hear it from our friends. That pisses me off, I have to hear it from our friends rather then from him himself. Now some of the bigger more personal stuff I understand. But some thing as little as going out of town? Now that's just fucked up. And I don't understand, is it cause he can't trust me? And if thats it then why cant he trust his girlfriend but can trust a 14 year old whiny ass prick. That makes no sense to me at all.
And he always told me one thing and told every one else some thing different. Its like why? What are you hiding from me? And it was just hard for me to trust him. Its a tad hard to really trust any one. Its like why bother if their just going to hide shit from you. I was his girlfriend and he couldnt feel like telling me any thing. My family always leaves me out of shit. They dont tell me any thing or tell me if we are going any where or doing any thing.
I feel so left out and its unfair, i cant even explain how it makes me feel when people do that. I just don't understand why i always get left out of every thing. Especially from my own boyfriend. It just makes no sense to me. I get enough of this from my own family I don't need it from any one else. Its like its hard to trust what any one says to me any more. Cause I just feel as if they are not telling me the truth. Cause people tell me one thing and every one else some thing completely different.
He did nothing but lie to me. He did nothing but keep things from me. Little things that he should have told me. Like him going out of town. He lied and said he had a job the next day oh i was laid off, then the day after that, oh i have to go to work. Its like which is it? And then I had to hear from Kyle (the 14 year old whiny ass) that Rocky was finally getting up off his ass and getting a job. Well why couldnt he tell me that he was getting a job? Some thing as little as that? Why didnt he tell me him self? I had to hear it from our friend. It was just.....I can't even explain it.
So yah enconclustion one of my biggest pet peeves in a relationship. Is when some one lies to me and keeps things from me. They tell some one, one thing and me some thing else. Or they dont tell me every thing. And i dont know why, it always happens to me. :(
Jan 18, 2009
Jan 16, 2009
I'm better now
OH yeah btw, I am starting to get better. I still have a bit of a cough and a bit of a stuffy nose. It isnt quite as bad as it was a few days ago. And my stupid nose keeps running so annoying. I do still feel a bit sick to my stomach. But that's starting to go away a bit. I still feel a bit tired and weak from being sick. But I am sure that will go away soon. Seems to be going away. Hopefully tomorrow I will be better. I'm sure my cough and nose will take a couple more days. But the good thing is they aren't quite as bad. So there is some good news for yah lol.
Peace out
Peace out
Bad start to the new year
Well the new year started pretty nice. I finally got Disturbed's Believe record. After so many years worrying what my mother would think of the cover. As she saw it once years ago. And she thought it was the sign of the devil. Lmao Even thou its actually 4 religions entwined. She actually never said any thing about it.
Then i got me Tomb Raider underworld. Found out it wouldn't work on my pc as i didn't have the right requirements. Well actually I already knew it wasn't going to work on my pc. But i bought it any ways cause you have no idea how hard it is to find Tomb raider games in stores. And they didn't have the ps2 version. And i knew that if i didn't get the pc version right then and there. That i would probably have to go to a million different stores or go on the internet to buy it. And I really didnt want to do that. Well when we tired to return it, come to find out we cant. As its a copy right law. You cant return a game or a cd that has been opened. Which sucks.
So here i am with a $40 piece of shit game they wont even work on my pc. Even though I knew it wasn't going to work. Well my dad finally got it to work on his 2nd hard drive on his pc. He still has to upgrade the speed on it. So till then its laggy as hell. But at least its working and i can play it. I just have to deal with the lag. Which is not some thing i can do as I am an impatient person.
And i also got me an mp3 player. Which is totally better then an ipod. I had been wanting an ipod since the day they came out. But i never had the money to buy it. Well i kind of sorta did. But if i decided to buy the $160 ipod i would be broke. As that was pretty much all i had. So i decided to go for a different type of mp3 player. Its not an ipod but at least its something. I get 2gb's space which is enough for me. As i mostly use it for my disturbed playlist and a few of my other favorite playlist.
It also has fm radio on it which is awesome. I can also record my voice or any thing else with it. Then the past 2 weeks i have been sick. For the first week i have been sick with a cold. And it was bad too. My nose was so stopped up i just couldn't breath and it sucked. I hadn't been able to sleep or eat. Cause I couldn't breath though my nose. And in order to sleep and eat i gotta be able to breath though my nose. And I just didn't feel like eating. Then my mom got sick with a 24 hour bug. And I tired so hard to stay away from her so that I wouldn't get it.
Well guess what? I ended up getting it any ways. And I was throwing up pretty much all day. And couldn't eat any thing. It was bad. Its been a while since Ive ever had the 24 hour bug. I was about 8 and i was in 3rd grade. I am not 17 lol that's about what 9 years.
I remember asking my teacher if I could go to the bathroom. And the bathroom was pretty far from my class room. And I just couldn't get to the bathroom fast enough. It started to come up and I tired so hard to hold it in. And I throw up right on the hall way floor before I even made it to the bathroom. And I was standing right at the door of the bathroom too. And what made it was was there was a girl walking down the hall way. So that was kind of embarrassing.
But when I think of it now it was pretty funny. And right after lunch we had music class. And as we were walking to the class I asked my teacher again if i could go to the bathroom. And I ended up throwing up on the floor again. Then I left the bathroom and went back to my music class. I assumed the teacher saw or a student told her I had puked on the floor or some thing. Cause the next thing I knew my teacher came into my music class, got me, and took me to the nurse's office. And they called my mother and I went home.
I don't know why i didn't just tell my teacher. At the time I kind of liked school cause my friends were there. But I also hated it cause of my selective mutisem disorder i had. And I got punished for not talking alot. I'm sure I have already blogged about it some where. lol But yah, i then went home. I do remember that i throw up that morning before going to school but my mother still sent me off to school. And I don't know why. Weird.
Anyways, I'm off now cya.
Peace out
Then i got me Tomb Raider underworld. Found out it wouldn't work on my pc as i didn't have the right requirements. Well actually I already knew it wasn't going to work on my pc. But i bought it any ways cause you have no idea how hard it is to find Tomb raider games in stores. And they didn't have the ps2 version. And i knew that if i didn't get the pc version right then and there. That i would probably have to go to a million different stores or go on the internet to buy it. And I really didnt want to do that. Well when we tired to return it, come to find out we cant. As its a copy right law. You cant return a game or a cd that has been opened. Which sucks.
So here i am with a $40 piece of shit game they wont even work on my pc. Even though I knew it wasn't going to work. Well my dad finally got it to work on his 2nd hard drive on his pc. He still has to upgrade the speed on it. So till then its laggy as hell. But at least its working and i can play it. I just have to deal with the lag. Which is not some thing i can do as I am an impatient person.
And i also got me an mp3 player. Which is totally better then an ipod. I had been wanting an ipod since the day they came out. But i never had the money to buy it. Well i kind of sorta did. But if i decided to buy the $160 ipod i would be broke. As that was pretty much all i had. So i decided to go for a different type of mp3 player. Its not an ipod but at least its something. I get 2gb's space which is enough for me. As i mostly use it for my disturbed playlist and a few of my other favorite playlist.
It also has fm radio on it which is awesome. I can also record my voice or any thing else with it. Then the past 2 weeks i have been sick. For the first week i have been sick with a cold. And it was bad too. My nose was so stopped up i just couldn't breath and it sucked. I hadn't been able to sleep or eat. Cause I couldn't breath though my nose. And in order to sleep and eat i gotta be able to breath though my nose. And I just didn't feel like eating. Then my mom got sick with a 24 hour bug. And I tired so hard to stay away from her so that I wouldn't get it.
Well guess what? I ended up getting it any ways. And I was throwing up pretty much all day. And couldn't eat any thing. It was bad. Its been a while since Ive ever had the 24 hour bug. I was about 8 and i was in 3rd grade. I am not 17 lol that's about what 9 years.
I remember asking my teacher if I could go to the bathroom. And the bathroom was pretty far from my class room. And I just couldn't get to the bathroom fast enough. It started to come up and I tired so hard to hold it in. And I throw up right on the hall way floor before I even made it to the bathroom. And I was standing right at the door of the bathroom too. And what made it was was there was a girl walking down the hall way. So that was kind of embarrassing.
But when I think of it now it was pretty funny. And right after lunch we had music class. And as we were walking to the class I asked my teacher again if i could go to the bathroom. And I ended up throwing up on the floor again. Then I left the bathroom and went back to my music class. I assumed the teacher saw or a student told her I had puked on the floor or some thing. Cause the next thing I knew my teacher came into my music class, got me, and took me to the nurse's office. And they called my mother and I went home.
I don't know why i didn't just tell my teacher. At the time I kind of liked school cause my friends were there. But I also hated it cause of my selective mutisem disorder i had. And I got punished for not talking alot. I'm sure I have already blogged about it some where. lol But yah, i then went home. I do remember that i throw up that morning before going to school but my mother still sent me off to school. And I don't know why. Weird.
Anyways, I'm off now cya.
Peace out
Jan 1, 2009
Happy New Year
Happy new year everyone, Well enough Of my rants for a bit. I finally got some thing good to talk about. Went to a new years party last night. It was like my 4th new years party ever.
The first year was in 'New Years 2006' We hang out with some friends my aunt knew. And that was fun.
The 2nd year 'New Years 2007' I went to my aunts house. And I learned how to play poker (Texas Hold'em, 5 card draw, 7 card stud) and learned Chase the Ace. Which was fun.
The 3rd year 'New Years 2008' I hung out with my sister and my Brother-in-law. That was fun too.
This year 'New years 2009' We again hung out with friends my aunt knew. The same people we hung out with in 2006. They were playing a game with an orange. Where the orange can not touch the ground. Stand in a circle and pass the orange to the person next to you. But you cant touch the orange with you hands. And the way you do it is you use your chin. It was so funny. I was laughing so hard I was crying. I think most of them were drunk by this time. Which is what made it funnier. But my parents crapped out at 11. So we went home. My parents are party poopers. Lmao. But thats ok I still had fun.
I think i deserve the fun after all that I've been though in the past year and a half. With my friends my ex and my mother. Lmao. I am glad its a new year. I can finally start over. :)
The first year was in 'New Years 2006' We hang out with some friends my aunt knew. And that was fun.
The 2nd year 'New Years 2007' I went to my aunts house. And I learned how to play poker (Texas Hold'em, 5 card draw, 7 card stud) and learned Chase the Ace. Which was fun.
The 3rd year 'New Years 2008' I hung out with my sister and my Brother-in-law. That was fun too.
This year 'New years 2009' We again hung out with friends my aunt knew. The same people we hung out with in 2006. They were playing a game with an orange. Where the orange can not touch the ground. Stand in a circle and pass the orange to the person next to you. But you cant touch the orange with you hands. And the way you do it is you use your chin. It was so funny. I was laughing so hard I was crying. I think most of them were drunk by this time. Which is what made it funnier. But my parents crapped out at 11. So we went home. My parents are party poopers. Lmao. But thats ok I still had fun.
I think i deserve the fun after all that I've been though in the past year and a half. With my friends my ex and my mother. Lmao. I am glad its a new year. I can finally start over. :)
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