My websites

Just a few of my websites

Soon I will update this site, change the layout and add in some stuff. Until I get people to help with the news section I probably won't be updating the news as much.

This is one of two personal sites. This site is for my TR Level editor projects. Here you can get information, screen shots, videos and downloads of my projects I've made with the editor.

My Unofficial site for Disturbed.

This is the 1 of 2 personal sites of mine. This one is for my graphics, remixes, and layouts.

Soon I will start working on this site again. Changing the layout and adding in stuff. But until I get people to help with the news section i may not update this part quite often.

Raiders Lair

My Tomb raider site. I am not even sure if I want to continue this site as it is such a huge site. And i have 4 other sites to run as it is. And I cant find anybody to help out.

New paranormal experience

It was about a couple weeks ago when i experienced another paranormal experience. I was sitting on the bed watching tv. And my AC unit changed settings on its own. And I was no where near the remote. It went from power saver to the fan only setting all by its self. When it did that I was like....WOH. Freaked the crap out of me. There was no reason for it to have done it on its own. Even if it was going out it still wouldn't change settings on its own like that. It was just really weird. But kind of cool at the same time.

Needing some thing more

The last few weeks I have felt like I've been overly stressed. First on the 23rd of July, I felt as if I was going to die of boredom. Nothing was making me happy, every thing was just irritating the shit out of me. Even Disturbed was getting on my nerves, which is a first cause disturbed never gets on my nerves. So you know some thing is wrong if Disturbed starts to irritate me. Every thing every one did irritated me, I just wanted to be able to talk to them and they wouldn't keep up their end of the convo. I wanted them to talk to me and help get my mind off what ever it was that I was feeling. And they were all busy doing some thing else or they just plain werent talking to me.

On the 30th of July, I had to go to the dentist. When I woke up that day I was fine. But when I got to the dentist after they tightened my braces. The dentist talked to my mother about the possibility of Oral Surgery to correct my underbite. And I had already made the decision to not go though with it. Till that day then the thought was put back into my mind. I don't have to do it if I dont want to. Its just only if I dont want to live with my underbite for the rest of my life. And it really dose not bother me that much. I dont even really notice it much any more. I feel as if the braces have corrected it a bit. But I am not a dentist so I dont know. But I do notice that its not quite as bad as it was about 2 or 3 years ago.

Then today I woke up, and my mother was just annoying the shit out of me. And is it wrong of me to say that even my 15 month old nephew annoied me a bit today? Theres another sign that its bad if my nephew bugs the shit out of me. Its not depression I know what depression is. I mean i have never had to deal with it, thank god, but I know that i am not depressed. Depressed is when you just feel sad all the time. And you dont feel like getting up out of bed. I am not sad I'm more angery then sad. I'm stressed and I think i know why i am feeling like this. I have been stressed cause i do the same thing every single day. I wake up, eat, feed my pets, brush my teeth, then come get on the computer and help my mom baby sit. I watch the same old shit every day, i eat the same old shit every day. I visit the same sites play the same games every single day.

I deal with my mother bitching at me every single day. And I think i just need a change. I need to get out into the world and start doing different things. But I cant do that right now. I am working on getting my GED and then I can get a job. THEN I can get out of this stupid house and start doing different things. And I hope that i wont continue to feel this way for a very long time. I just need some thing different. I need some thing more. I cant keep sitting in this house for much longer its just killing me. And I feel that if i do have to sit in this stupid house for very much longer I am going to explod and go and rip some ones head off. And I feel that, the person that gets their head ripped off will be my mother.

Ghosts

My most favorite show on tv to watch is Ghost hunters and Ghost hunters International. I watched two episodes of each and now I am just a tad freaked out. I love that show and I love ghost but it creeps me out. And I know better then to watch it at night. But its like it just seems so much better to watch it at night. I hate to be scared but then is like I want to be scared. I don't know if any one has ever felt that way. You get scared but its like you want more. Most of you probably know that if you watch horror movies.

And I really think our house is haunted. I haven't really seen any thing or heard or felt any thing in a few years. When I was young. I used to see apperception alot now not so much I think when your young you have this huge imagination, then as you get older that kind of gose away thats why they say kids can always see them easier cause of the imagination then when you get older you just dont have that imagination as much as you did when you were a kid thats just what I believe. I remember some of the things that I had seen as a kid. And if you scare very easily then I suggest you skip to the end of this entry.

Personal Experience One:
The kitchen door: My mother and I would always hear what sounded like some one at the kitchen door. I remember when I was hope alone I kept thinking my parents were home. Cause they always come in though the grage and then though the kitchen door. But when I went to check no one was at the door. And my mother has done the same thing thinking my dad was home.

Personal Experience Two:
There was one time at night when I was getting cookies. And I saw some thing out of the corner of my eye. It looked like a person walking in front of my nephews play pin. And I looked over and it continued to walk towards the computer room/dogs bed room. And when it reached the door-way it disappared. And it really freaked me out I grabbed my cookies and RAN to my bed room.

Personal Experience Three:
I remember walking into the family room and right around the entrance to the room from the hallway. I felt a cold spot, and it felt kind of like a burst of energy going though me. And it made me quite dizzy.

Personal Experience Four:
I always had this uneasy feeling when I had my back turned towards the hallway. I could never turn my back towards it. Cause it just felt like some one was watching me the whole time. So I always made sure I stayed facing it. And I could never walk down the hallway. And this only happened when I was home alone.

Personal Experience Five:
There were a few times when I was walking though the family room. I always had to walk past the living room and I would always seem to see a shadow in there. And it creeped the shit out of me. So I got in the habit of looking in there every time I walked past it. I dont seem to see it every time I walk past it. But there are some times when I do seem it.

Personal Experience Six:
My mother and I were standing in the entrance of the bath room. We were standing in the hallway and I had just come out of the bathroom and she was talking to me. We have these AC units in the windows. And she asked me if it was on. And I remember telling her no. She then told me she had felt a cold spot right where she was standing. I don't know if she realized what that was but yah.

Personal Experience Seven:
My mother found one of her long candle sticks in the bathroom. She asked me and my sister. And neither of us had put it in there. And my mom said she didnt put it in there. My dad couldn't have put it in there. I mean what would he need a candle in the bathroom for. None of us knew how or why the candle was in the bathroom.

Personal Experience Eight:
I remember as a kid in the old bedroom I had before I moved into my sisters when she moved out. I saw one ghostly figure standing at my bedroom door. And it disappared after a few seconds. Then another time there was one standing beside my bed. And it totally freaked me out.

Personal Experience Nine:
There was one time when I heard noises. I had this hook thing on my wall that had my necklaces on them. And there was one that had a christmas bell on it. And it kept hitting the way. And there was no way for it to have been doing that.

Personal Experience Ten:
I remember seeing a head peeking into my room one time and I know it could have been my dad. Cause my bedroom door was open and his room is right across from mine. And it wasnt my mom. Cause I never saw either of them walk by. Never saw my sister walk by. And I am pretty sure that she was at a friends house. But a part of me keeps thinking it may have been my sister and I just may not have realized it. But I watched my door for a minute. Then I remember getting up and never saw any one. And I never saw my sister walk back to her room.

Personal Experience Eleven:
There have been times when I have heard my mother calling my name. But that couldnt have happened cause my mother was fast asleep. But I heard it as clear as day as if she was in the next room calling me. But I know for sure she didn't.

Personal Experience Twelve:
I've seen shadows move in the room I sleep in now. And I remembers seeing a shadow of a little child.

Personal Experience Thirteen:
My sister was here picking up her son. And she told my mother and me she thought she saw a child running though the family room.

Personal Experience Fourteen:
I remember hearing some thing move on my entertainment center. I turned on the light and never saw any thing move. Didnt look like any thing moved. Every thing was in its same place.

Personal Experience Fifthteen:
It seems, I am not sure if this is peranormal or not, but my bed tends to shake at night when ever I am trying to sleep. And it never dose it in the day time. There was one time when it violently shook, scaring the shit out of me.

Personal Experience Sixteen:
This may not have been a ghost. But I remember listening to prayer by disturbed. I was watching the video to it. And I had watched it like a bunch of times. And then I head this voice in my headphones. And I dont know what he said. It could have been an interference that I heard. Cause my dad had a walkie talkie, but the thing wasnt on and no one was talking on it. So it was really weird.

So yah I've had a lot of Personal Experiences and I kind of hope that I don't get to many more if none at all. Hope you guys enjoyed reading my Personal Experiences. Like I said I hope I dont have any more too post.

Updated Bio

Ok figured I would update an old post i made here

Nickname-Kate, Kat
Height-5"5
Home Place-U.S.A
Eyes-Forest Green
Hair Type- wavy (THICK) Damn I hate it

Boyfriend- In a relationship

First job: Babysitting

Favorite color: Pink, Black

Favorite Shows: Charmed, Reba, Doctor who, Lost, Family Guy, South Park, The Simpson's, Naruto, Legend of the Seeker, Ghost hunters, Ghost hunters International, Tom & Jerry, Ghost Whisper, CSI: Miami, CSI: NY, Spongebob,

Favorite movies: Tomb Raider, Pirates of the Caribbean Trilogy,

Favorite Music: Rock, Metal

Favoritest Band: Disturbed

Favorite Actor: Orlando Bloom, Dwayne Johnson, Eric Bana

Favorite Actress: Keira Knightly, Angelina Jolie

Favorite Video Game: Tomb Raider, Black Hawk Down

Favorite Bands/Singers: Disturbed, Staind, Avenged Sevenfold, Alter Bridge, Evanescence, Lacuna Coil, Metalica, Akon, Eminem, Linkin Park, Kelly Clarkson, Trapt, 3 Doors Down, Avril Lavigne, Sevendust, Nickleback, Puddle of Mudd, P.O.D, Korn, Three Days Grace, Seether, Papa Roach, Britney Spears, Godsmack, Altered, Creed,

Languages I speaks: A tiny bit of Espanol

Pets: Three dogs, Sammie: Half Lab, Half German Shepherd. Buddy: Tarrier Mix. Takita Maria: Half terrier mix, Half Chihuahua. Turtle: Bubba Sue: Red Ear Slider,

Favorite food: Pizza, Hot dogs,

Habits: I use to bit my nails. Poping my joints, (my knuckles, back, neck, knees, toes, wrist, and my ankles. I know I should probably stop right?) I tend to talk to myself some times. Like think out loud.

Hobbies: Writing, Playing on the computer, Drawing, Singing (even thou i cant), Dancing, Making tomb raider games with the level editor, Making web sites, blogging, graphic designs,

First CD: Britney Spears ...Baby one more time

Kat Interview

Inside or Ouside?

I would have to say both. I love the out doors I love nature. But in doors is where me computer is, tv, Tivo, PS2, DVD Player. *laughs*

Blondes or Brunettes?

Brunettes, I dont know why, I just like Brunettes better.

Tattoos or Piercings?

Tattoos. I cant do pain, so I dont think I would do piercings. And I know tats hurt but im sure piercings hurt worse right? I dont have tattoos but I want a cross on my right fore arm. I want a heart with vines or wings on my lower back. One that wraps around my left arm.

Letters or Email?

Email. So much easier the letters I think hehe.

Summer or Winter?

Summer cause of July 4th and June 14th my b-day. But winter cause of Christmas.
HAHA. I'd rather be cold then hot. Cause you can always find ways to get warm. But you can never find ways to stay cool. Or stay cool.

Quotes:
"Stop complaining that your boobs are to big or their not big enough. Dont freak out cause you broke your whittle nail. Stop caring that your butt is to big or not big enough. Cause there are so many other people in the world that have nothing. You have every thing you can imagine. You have food, clean water, and more importantly you have money. So many people dont have any of that. They dont have homes, enough food, clean water, and they dont even have money. So start thinking about them, cause you can get surgery to fix your boobs. You can exercise to fix your but. You can go to the nail salon to fix your whittle nail. Cause you can afford it, so many people in 3rd world centuries or homeless people all around the world cant."

"If you want some thing done a certain way. Then get up of ya lazy ass and do it ya self. Cause we all do things differently. So don't stand over some one telling them how to do something. Let them do it their way or do it ya self. YA HEAR ME!!! DO IT YOU SELF IF YOU WANT IT DONE A CERTAIN WAY! :P"

10 months

Wow has it really been that fucking long? Its been 10 months since I've seen Rocky. Haven't heard from him at all. At the start of the year, I was actually ok. I was still and am still bitter about it. But I was happy, and I am even more happy that I finally found some one new. Some one who is sweet, funny, some one i enjoy talking to. Some one who is respectful, he don't treat me like crap. He don't do what Rocky did.

Recap: Rocky was talkative and sweet one minute. Then the next he was some one completely different. He didnt care about me and he ignored me.

And I am so much more happier now, i think, then i ever was with Rocky. And The 5th of june was actually our 1 month anniversary since we started dating. Aint that exciting lol. Well I think it is, lol. I really hope that soon I can get a job and he can get his butt down here. lol Or i could get my butt up there. That will be excited I cant wait.

Pet peeves (Relationship Version)

One thing that bothers me the most. That my ex Rocky did to me all the time. We had known each other for about 7 months. But dated for like 5 months, and he didn't feel like he could tell me any thing. He'd rather tell this guy who was 14 years old and was the most annoying whiny ass little prick. Then tell his own girlfriend. I never understood that, I am his girl friend and he could never even tell me the little things. Like he had to go out of town and I had to hear it from our friends. That pisses me off, I have to hear it from our friends rather then from him himself. Now some of the bigger more personal stuff I understand. But some thing as little as going out of town? Now that's just fucked up. And I don't understand, is it cause he can't trust me? And if thats it then why cant he trust his girlfriend but can trust a 14 year old whiny ass prick. That makes no sense to me at all.

And he always told me one thing and told every one else some thing different. Its like why? What are you hiding from me? And it was just hard for me to trust him. Its a tad hard to really trust any one. Its like why bother if their just going to hide shit from you. I was his girlfriend and he couldnt feel like telling me any thing. My family always leaves me out of shit. They dont tell me any thing or tell me if we are going any where or doing any thing.

I feel so left out and its unfair, i cant even explain how it makes me feel when people do that. I just don't understand why i always get left out of every thing. Especially from my own boyfriend. It just makes no sense to me. I get enough of this from my own family I don't need it from any one else. Its like its hard to trust what any one says to me any more. Cause I just feel as if they are not telling me the truth. Cause people tell me one thing and every one else some thing completely different.

He did nothing but lie to me. He did nothing but keep things from me. Little things that he should have told me. Like him going out of town. He lied and said he had a job the next day oh i was laid off, then the day after that, oh i have to go to work. Its like which is it? And then I had to hear from Kyle (the 14 year old whiny ass) that Rocky was finally getting up off his ass and getting a job. Well why couldnt he tell me that he was getting a job? Some thing as little as that? Why didnt he tell me him self? I had to hear it from our friend. It was just.....I can't even explain it.

So yah enconclustion one of my biggest pet peeves in a relationship. Is when some one lies to me and keeps things from me. They tell some one, one thing and me some thing else. Or they dont tell me every thing. And i dont know why, it always happens to me. :(

I'm better now

OH yeah btw, I am starting to get better. I still have a bit of a cough and a bit of a stuffy nose. It isnt quite as bad as it was a few days ago. And my stupid nose keeps running so annoying. I do still feel a bit sick to my stomach. But that's starting to go away a bit. I still feel a bit tired and weak from being sick. But I am sure that will go away soon. Seems to be going away. Hopefully tomorrow I will be better. I'm sure my cough and nose will take a couple more days. But the good thing is they aren't quite as bad. So there is some good news for yah lol.

Peace out

Bad start to the new year

Well the new year started pretty nice. I finally got Disturbed's Believe record. After so many years worrying what my mother would think of the cover. As she saw it once years ago. And she thought it was the sign of the devil. Lmao Even thou its actually 4 religions entwined. She actually never said any thing about it.

Then i got me Tomb Raider underworld. Found out it wouldn't work on my pc as i didn't have the right requirements. Well actually I already knew it wasn't going to work on my pc. But i bought it any ways cause you have no idea how hard it is to find Tomb raider games in stores. And they didn't have the ps2 version. And i knew that if i didn't get the pc version right then and there. That i would probably have to go to a million different stores or go on the internet to buy it. And I really didnt want to do that. Well when we tired to return it, come to find out we cant. As its a copy right law. You cant return a game or a cd that has been opened. Which sucks.

So here i am with a $40 piece of shit game they wont even work on my pc. Even though I knew it wasn't going to work. Well my dad finally got it to work on his 2nd hard drive on his pc. He still has to upgrade the speed on it. So till then its laggy as hell. But at least its working and i can play it. I just have to deal with the lag. Which is not some thing i can do as I am an impatient person.

And i also got me an mp3 player. Which is totally better then an ipod. I had been wanting an ipod since the day they came out. But i never had the money to buy it. Well i kind of sorta did. But if i decided to buy the $160 ipod i would be broke. As that was pretty much all i had. So i decided to go for a different type of mp3 player. Its not an ipod but at least its something. I get 2gb's space which is enough for me. As i mostly use it for my disturbed playlist and a few of my other favorite playlist.

It also has fm radio on it which is awesome. I can also record my voice or any thing else with it. Then the past 2 weeks i have been sick. For the first week i have been sick with a cold. And it was bad too. My nose was so stopped up i just couldn't breath and it sucked. I hadn't been able to sleep or eat. Cause I couldn't breath though my nose. And in order to sleep and eat i gotta be able to breath though my nose. And I just didn't feel like eating. Then my mom got sick with a 24 hour bug. And I tired so hard to stay away from her so that I wouldn't get it.

Well guess what? I ended up getting it any ways. And I was throwing up pretty much all day. And couldn't eat any thing. It was bad. Its been a while since Ive ever had the 24 hour bug. I was about 8 and i was in 3rd grade. I am not 17 lol that's about what 9 years.

I remember asking my teacher if I could go to the bathroom. And the bathroom was pretty far from my class room. And I just couldn't get to the bathroom fast enough. It started to come up and I tired so hard to hold it in. And I throw up right on the hall way floor before I even made it to the bathroom. And I was standing right at the door of the bathroom too. And what made it was was there was a girl walking down the hall way. So that was kind of embarrassing.

But when I think of it now it was pretty funny. And right after lunch we had music class. And as we were walking to the class I asked my teacher again if i could go to the bathroom. And I ended up throwing up on the floor again. Then I left the bathroom and went back to my music class. I assumed the teacher saw or a student told her I had puked on the floor or some thing. Cause the next thing I knew my teacher came into my music class, got me, and took me to the nurse's office. And they called my mother and I went home.

I don't know why i didn't just tell my teacher. At the time I kind of liked school cause my friends were there. But I also hated it cause of my selective mutisem disorder i had. And I got punished for not talking alot. I'm sure I have already blogged about it some where. lol But yah, i then went home. I do remember that i throw up that morning before going to school but my mother still sent me off to school. And I don't know why. Weird.

Anyways, I'm off now cya.

Peace out

Happy New Year

Happy new year everyone, Well enough Of my rants for a bit. I finally got some thing good to talk about. Went to a new years party last night. It was like my 4th new years party ever.

The first year was in 'New Years 2006' We hang out with some friends my aunt knew. And that was fun.

The 2nd year 'New Years 2007' I went to my aunts house. And I learned how to play poker (Texas Hold'em, 5 card draw, 7 card stud) and learned Chase the Ace. Which was fun.

The 3rd year 'New Years 2008' I hung out with my sister and my Brother-in-law. That was fun too.

This year 'New years 2009' We again hung out with friends my aunt knew. The same people we hung out with in 2006. They were playing a game with an orange. Where the orange can not touch the ground. Stand in a circle and pass the orange to the person next to you. But you cant touch the orange with you hands. And the way you do it is you use your chin. It was so funny. I was laughing so hard I was crying. I think most of them were drunk by this time. Which is what made it funnier. But my parents crapped out at 11. So we went home. My parents are party poopers. Lmao. But thats ok I still had fun.

I think i deserve the fun after all that I've been though in the past year and a half. With my friends my ex and my mother. Lmao. I am glad its a new year. I can finally start over. :)